Shigure Sohma : The Puppeteer in the Shadows

"The most unconcerned of being alone. The one who never feared me. The one who was impossible to tie down"-Akito Sohma, about Shigure

"When the twelve zodiac were born this time,the servants were really excited. But I understood something else. This is it. It is going to be the last banquet..and that is why we are all gathered here"- Shigure,about the weakening of the Sohma curse.

"I never changed. I am still there. Waiting for you to come to me"-Shigure, to Akito

"We have just witnessed a classic example of what I like to call 'misdirected rage.' I believe the technical term is 'being an ass.'"- Shigure

" Who is the fool who doesn't understand,now?"-Shigure about Akito, to Hatori.

"Who said anything about leaving? Traitor"-Shigure to Akito.

"That person..always has to make sarcastic remarks when am in pain. He keeps degrading me"-Akito about Shigure.

"Why don't you let go of being a 'God'? The person your father wanted you to be?"-Shigure to Akito

"On one hand,you want me to deny your identity as a woman. On the other hand,you use the very fact you are a woman against me"-Shigure to Akito

"I too know...what it is like to be jealous"-Shigure,referring to Akito and Kureno's relationship.

"Sometimes I think the whole world is conspiring to destroy my house"-Shigure

"The evil has perished!"-Mitchan,Shigure's editor after Shigure's decision to quit the publishing industry.

I still remember that vow. If I can fight to make it happen, I won't feel guilty about...the means to that end. Even if someone gets hurt in the process. There are times...when I hate myself for it. Especially when I see Tohru-kun. It's not what you think. ...She really is a good kid. Even though she is a tranquilizer for Yuki-kun and Kyo-kun...it just seems to me that everything's coming together so... cleanly. I'm forced to see...that I may be...the filthiest one. -Shigure

Mitchan - Please take your job a little more seriously. Isn't your job important to you?
Shigure - Huh? The most important thing to me...has always been me.

"Don't you feel stupid? They have found their happiness,you're the only one who hasn't let go of the past"-Shigure to Mayuko

"Sometimes it is best not to know certain things. Life is better dealt that way. It is peaceful"-Shigure to Mayuko.

"I call it,'animal instinct'"-Shigure

"Que sera sera.Whatever will be,will be"-Shigure

"We,the members of the Zodiac are monsters. The very existence of the Cat makes us feel better about ourselves. Ask anyone whether they look down upon the Cat,for a moment,I assure you,they'll be speechless. And that is the Cat's duty"-Shigure to Tohru.

"Next time,I hope you meet a woman who you don't have to stay away from even while you're with her. A woman you can truly be happy with"-Shigure to Hatori

"So thats how it feels.."-Shigure,after being released from the curse.

Inferno

Am I self destructive?
Why do I feel the cold blizzard across the moor and revel in its chill?
That I walk towards the eye of the storm,not away from it?

Hadn't I known what it is like to be burnt once?
Why am I putting my hand through the fire again?
I have known this inferno.
I have known how it charred my insides,
leaving a blackened,barren,dry land
with every fluid of life drawn out.
It had left me scarred.
Yet,I still look at the inferno
with unhealthy fascination.

Take my hand,
and lead me away.
It will take time for me to heal,
when I am scarred again.

Disillusion

Put me on the cross of disillusionment,
I have been betrayed by certainty,
my coffin nailed shut by my faith.

Crucify me.
But before I perish to dust,
tell me,
is where I am going, a fool's paradise too?

Dedicated to Riju chan

Kindest Eyes
The door has cracked open,
I peeked in to see the visitor.
He stood there,a kindly vision.
He did not try to come in,
after all,this house had nothing to offer him.
He did not turn away,
He just stood there,as if waiting.
He smiled at me,those kind eyes crinkling
and I opened the door for him
He walked in,
and with him came the sunlight.

Fleur De Lis

I was shopping with my friend,who knew my fetish for lockets and rings.It was strange to find him examining crystal ware,near the back of the shop. "Aren't you supposed to be looking for a locket for me?" I asked him,in mock anger. He didn't grin at me like he usually did,he looked at me with a strangely thoughtful expression that scared me. I had never seen him like that before.
He pointed to the wine glass he was staring at.
"My mom had preserved wine glasses like these" he told me. "It was her favorite. I liked them a lot too. It was beautiful"
I waited for him to go on.
"She never allowed me to touch them. And I know why. The day I held them,I broke all of them" he said. There was a smile on his face.It was inflection less.It was almost sardonic.
He turned to me,his poker face was back. He grinned. "Now what kind of locket do you want?"
I smiled.It was a mirror image of his smile.I realised then I had a poker face too. "I have been looking for one which has fleur-de-lis.."
We walked back to the front of the store,our usual camaraderie back in place.

~

Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored
-Linkin Park,Faint

Claustrophobia

Dedicated to Lee san
He waits for the numbing bindings to fall away,
for the warmth of passion to thaw his frozen heart,
to find hope in the abyss of monotony
to lift the curse of eternal sleep
So he no longer will be a prisoner of precincts of daily life.

Echo

Her face reflected chaos of grief,the glasses of her facade had shattered,piercing the very self she wanted to protect. She ran inside the bathroom,without changing her clothes,without answering her mother,and shut herself in. She cried to the floor,as if it was the only thing that could listen to her and offer comfort. I wanted to comfort her,but she couldn't see my hands as they tried brush her tears away.

Who was this familiar stranger whose grief sent aches of sadness in me?

Her tears dried out,and she slowly walked out of the bathroom and she lay on her bed, slowly drifting to sleep. An escape she sought. Her face told me she was aware of her pain in sleep,though it was numbed by it. I walked quietly towards her,she reminded me of a younger sibling I might have lost.

"Sleep,little one" I told her,gently,smoothing the worry lines on her forehead." You are going to be just fine"

She curled up in the bed like a cat,and sighed as she drifted to a more peaceful sleep.

When the Curtains Fall

The curtains fall,
the electric euphoria fades.
The pain,heartbreak are waiting for me backstage
The show is over,
and we embrace.
I know they are companions,shadows for me to live with,
for many more days.

Dr.Hannibal Lecter

Inspector: Do you have any guilty knowledge of the death of Paul Momund?

Hannibal: Guilty knowledge?

Mason Verger: So what do ya think, Cordell? Does Lecter want to fuck her or kill her or eat her alive?

Cordell Doemling: Probably all three, though I wouldn't want to predict in what order.

Hannibal :My freedom, just that. You'd take that from me. And if you did, would they have you back, do you think? The FBI? Those people you despise almost as much as they despise you? Will they give you a medal, Clarice, do you think? Would you have it professionally framed and hang it on your wall to look at and remind you of your courage and incorruptibility? All you would need for that, Clarice, is a mirror.


Dr. Lecter: Why do you think he removes their skins, Agent Starling? Enthrall me with your acumen.
Clarice: It excites him. Most serial killers keep some sort of trophies from their victims.
Dr. Lecter: I didn't.
Clarice: No. No, you ate yours.

Jack: Just do your job, but never forget what he is.
Clarice: And what is that?
[Cut to Clarice's first trip to the psychiatric prison]
Dr. Chilton: Oh, he's a monster. Pure psychopath. So rare to capture one alive. From a research point of view, Lecter is our most prized asset.

Dr. Lecter: Tell me, Senator, did you nurse Catherine yourself?
Senator Ruth Martin: What?
Dr. Lecter: Did you breast-feed her?
Krendler: Now, wait a minute …
Sen. Martin: Yes, I did.
Dr. Lecter: Toughened your nipples, didn't it?
Krendler: You son of a bitch!
Dr. Lecter: Amputate a man's leg, and he can still feel it tickling. Tell me, ma'am, when your little girl is on the slab, where will it tickle you?
Sen. Martin: Take this thing back to Baltimore!
Dr. Lecter: Five foot ten, strongly built, about a hundred and eighty pounds; hair blonde, eyes pale blue. He'd be about thirty-five now. He said he lived in Philadelphia, but may have lied. That's all I can remember, Mom, but if I think of any more, I will let you know. Oh, and Senator, just one more thing: love your suit.

Dr. Lecter: [on telephone] Well, Clarice, have the lambs stopped screaming?
Clarice: Dr. Lecter?
Dr. Lecter: Don't bother with a trace, I won't be on long enough.
Clarice: Where are you?
Dr. Lecter: I have no plans to call on you, Clarice. The world's much more interesting with you in it. So you take care now to extend me the same courtesy.
Clarice: You know I can't make that promise.
Dr. Lecter: I do wish we could chat longer, but … [eyeing Dr. Chilton] I'm having an old friend for dinner. Bye.
Clarice: Dr. Lecter? … Dr. Lecter? … Dr. Lecter? … Dr. Lecter? …

Snape's Worst Memory

"What is it with her?" James asked,trying and failing to look as if it was a throwaway question of no real importance to him.
"Reading between the lines,I'd say she thinks you are bit conceited mate" Sirius said.

"You wait-you wait!"Snape panted.
"Wait for what? What are you going to do,Snivelly,wipe your nose on us?"Sirius said coolly.

"I want to be in Gryffindor 'where brave dwell at heart'.Like my dad" James said.
Snape made a disparaging noise.
"Got a problem with that?"James looked around.
"No"-Though his slight sneer suggested otherwise."If you'd rather be brawny rather than brainy-"
"Where are you hoping to go?"interjected Sirius."Seeing as you are neither?

Sayuri Nitta, Memoirs of a Geisha

The heart dies a slow death, shedding each hope like leaves... Until one day there are none. No hopes. Nothing remains.
-Sayuri

Dreams can be such dangerous things; they smolder on like a fire does, and sometimes consume us completely.
-Sayuri

Jacob Black <3 ( I love spontaneous,passionate men)

"I'm sorry.I don't have leeches on speed dial"-Jacob Black to Edward Cullen

"He's like a drug for you, Bella. I see that you can't live without him now. It's too late. But I would have been healthier for you. Not a drug; I would have been the air, the sun." -Jacob Black to Bella Swan.

"Only a teenage boy would agree to this: deceiving both our parents while repairing dangerous vehicles using money meant for my college education. He didn't see anything wrong with that picture. Jacob was a gift from the gods."
- Bella Swan about Jacob Black

"Jacob was simply a perpetually happy person, and he carried that happiness with him like an aura, sharing it with whoever was near him. Like an earthbound sun, whenever someone was within his gravitational pull, Jacob warmed them. "
-Bella Swan about Jacob Black

"I felt like,like it wasn't real.Like I was in a goth version of a bad sitcom,instead of the dweeb about to ask head cheerleader for the prom,I'm the finished-second-werewolf going to ask a vampire's wife to shack up and procreate.Nice"-Jacob Black

"Thank you,it is very kind of you" [Edward]
"Kind is my middle name" -Jacob Black

"He was my best friend and I would always love him but it would never,ever be enough"-Bella Swan about Jacob Black

"I wonder if a bullet through my head would really kill me or would leave a big mess for me to clean up"-Jacob Black

He was everywhere. The piercing sunlight turned my eyelids red, and the color fit, matched the
heat. The heat was everywhere. I couldn’t see or hear or feel anything that wasn’t Jacob.
The tiny piece of my brain that retained sanity screamed questions at me.
Why wasn’t I stopping this? Worse than that, why couldn’t I find in myself even the desire
towant to stop? What did it mean that I didn’t wanthim to stop? That my hands clung to his
shoulders, and liked that they were wide and strong? That his hands pulled me too tight against
his body, and yet it was not tight enough for me?
The questions were stupid, because I knew the answer: I’d been lying to myself.
Jacob was right. He’d been right all along. He was more than just my friend. That’s why it was
so impossible to tell him goodbye — because I was in love with him. Too. I loved him, much
more than I should, and yet, still nowhere near enough. I was in love with him, but it was not
enough to change anything; it was only enough to hurt us both more. To hurt him worse than I
ever had.
I didn’t care about more than that — than his pain. I more than deserved whatever pain this
caused me. I hoped it was bad. I hoped I would really suffer.
In this moment, it felt as though we were the same person. His pain had always been and would
always be my pain — now his joy was my joy. I felt joy, too, and yet his happiness was
somehow also pain. Almost tangible — it burned against my skin like acid, a slow torture.
-Bella Swan,while kissing Jacob Black

And I realised just then I was all wrong about magnets.It wasn't Edward and Jacob I was trying to force together-it was two parts of myself. Edward's Bella and Jacob's Bella.They couldn't exist together,and I never should have tried.
-Bella Swan

Now I could hear the faint rustle of the matted leaves beneath my toenails, the
whisper of an owl’s wings above me, the ocean — far, far in the west — moaning against the
beach. Hear this, and nothing more. Feel nothing but speed, nothing but the pull of muscle,
sinew, and bone, working together in harmony as the miles disappeared behind me.
If the silence in my head lasted, I would never go back. I wouldn’t be the first one to choose this
form over the other. Maybe, if I ran far enough away, I would never have to hear again. . . .
I pushed my legs faster, letting Jacob Black disappear behind me.
- Jacob Black,running away after receiving Edward and Bella's wedding invitation

Oh,blah.I just wished they chose someone else to do Jacob Black in the movie...he is supposed to look like a 25 year old (physically,anyway) werewolf cum mechanic but the consolation is that I hear Taylor lautner is a really good actor. Sigh. Three characters I actually finished the saga for : Jasper,Jacob,Leah and of course there are some paragraphs where her Stephanie Meyer's writing really shines.There are few paragraphs in each book which are beautiful..and sad :)

The Vampire Lestat

In spite of all the refinements of civilization that conspired to make art - the dizzying perfection of the string quartet or the sprawling grandeur of Fragonard's canvases - beauty was savage. It was as dangerous and lawless as the earth had been eons before man had one single coherent thought in his head or wrote codes of conduct on tablets of clay. Beauty was a Savage Garden

- The Vampire Lestat

Hear,hear,Lestat

"I am not going there to die.I am going there to find out if I am really alive" -Spike Spiegal

I love this quote! \m/

Fallen Angel

The goodness is crippling,
I am a fallen angel,
banished from the heavens
the angelic smile withering away,
transforming into ecstasy of hate

An illuminated darkness,
born within this heart,
I descend from the highest point in the sky,
bathing through the moisture of the clouds,
which can't cleanse the sins that have been ignited

The life of mine that has been denied
refuses to touch me,rushes past me,
in a roar of deafening sound,
like a babbling of streams
as I fall into the deepest of slumbers